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Journal Entry: Wed Jan 19, 2011, 3:27 PM

I just feel like writing what is in my head .. so I hope it does not get too much so some might read and tell me the best

You can also go ahead whishing me the best without reading. I guess it's still quite the same.

Tomorrow I will go to our local art university and talk with a small group about my work to get feedback on it. This would be the assistance of the "communitcation-design"-class which I feel like I could like. On Friday I will go to the same thing but with the "graphic design" class.

I'm a bit nervous because I remember how - with 17 years and a great lack of selfesteem - I reacted after being rejected. I literally dropped art, started to study what I study now (which was not a bad choice but does not feel very close to .. me). And also at the end of last summer I went to a talk with the class for art teacher after (which I now really don't want to do) being very motivated by the teacher for figure drawing-class and was "blasted" away by the exhousted teacher who mainly said how stupid I am to think that 20 works mean 20 works (obviously, how could I!!!) and that for what I brought with me it's mainly all rubbish (to say: cheesy) but for one photo where she did not get the direction first which actually made me giggle..

To me it seemd like she went for A2 drawings of mostly abstract things and street art and compared to that - of course a4 drawings are not the same.

With my study I have no time to actually do all the works I would really love to do. My heart bleeds when I stay with small ACEO-Cards because I prefer working "in one blow" and cannot stay up late night all the time just for that because I already have to stay up all night for what I'm doing. I so much do look forward to my Bachelor! I like to finish things and to start new ones. I often feel tired and "slow" so changes push me.

So this is the first point .. I cannot show off what I do want to. I now managed to gather some works, but some of them are really old and do not quite represent me now .. . So I will do some sketches for tomorrow to at least see if what I have in mind is what they like to see.. .

I just do hope that it is not going to be the "fuck off bitch" method again. I'm afraid that this might push me back to a very desolate state I've actually been before questioning if I "will ever make it" and "realizing" that I'm far away from whatever I would like to be in that moment. It's actually most of the time the same with me so I try to stop worrying my head sick and it works most of the time.. . It's like I write exams and right away apply for "doing it again" and when I get my grate I realize that I did a perfect job and do not have to do it again at all. It is not so much the fact of being wrong, but the mere fact that I keep having "bad vibrations" far too long.

The next problem is the ever existing pressure I feel - I do not know if this is acutally what I want. How should I, if I never had the chance to try. I like working for clients and I notice that my work is quite decent to what other people do (at least .. sometimes) that have not been educated or did not do something almost completely different next to it as "full-time-job" but I also feel that I'm not knowing enough (and therefore am not as good as I could be) and think that education or educating myself would make a big deal. On the other side .. I used to really know that from all graphic-related jobs I do not want to do advertisements. Which now changed .. a little. So I just will see. But then I also have and had the very deep interest in psychology and therapy-methods such as art-therapy for disabled or mentally ill people and since very little I wanted to do something that changes the world for a better place (if at least at a small grade) and not make things worse .. which explains why I would not be absolutely fond of doing advertisement (and similar except its for a good purpose - then I would love to do it .. but we all know that those "good things" are rare) .. .

I'm very excited for what will happen this year because I really hope that I will head into a new direction and maybe find what I'm looking for and not what other people are looking for me. But mainly I'm afraid that I will not. So this is the worry-head I want to get rid of because to me it's more this problem then the problem of not making it ..

Sorry for writing so much.. o.O

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Mood: Neutral
Listening to: opeth
Drinking: water

Now this is crazy!

Journal Entry: Thu Dec 2, 2010, 11:51 PM

I'm really really astonished by the huge positive react to my recent work and DD (which still blows my mind off ^^) "creating my own world". I would never have guessed it could really happen.

I try to look back at least at most of the people who commented my work because thats what deviantART actually is for me (or what I would want it to be ..) - a place where people talk to each other, mainly about art, but also about other things.

Now I need to go.
Whish you a nice weekend!
Fluegel

Some of my newer favorites:
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Mood: Questionable
Drinking: green tea

thank you :)

Journal Entry: Sun Nov 28, 2010, 6:14 AM

I just wanted to say thank you to all who have commented and faved my recent work "creating my own world"! This means a lot to me and I'm very happy that so many people seem to enjoy it!

Also I got kind of fed up with my skin and changed for another one .. ^^ I like this new and simple one. It's from `janvanlysebettens

Hope you had and still have a nice weekend. I've been working a lot today (and still have to)

But yesterday was fantastic.

Some pretty awesome work ...

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Greetigs,
Fluegel

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Mood: Questionable
Listening to: Sigur Ros
Drinking: water

Random Artist Feature

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 24, 2010, 6:13 AM

I thought this could be nice.
Personally I

their work!

~IIMadhoshiII

~PabloMoranJr

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*Retro-Grade1

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Mood: Artistic

Feature: sweav

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 17, 2010, 8:43 AM

Hello

Today I want to introduce you to ~sweav's powerfull drawings. He works with pencil and paper - new works with some spray as well. I love the perfection of his drawings. I love the shadow and I love the female nudes he draws. They are curvy, sexy and somewhat lustful.
Take a look at my favorite works from his gallery .. .

Feature

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Mood: Peaceful

sell prints ? - help

Journal Entry: Sun Feb 14, 2010, 10:06 AM

Hello

I feel totally lost in services where I could sell my artwork. Also I'm not sure whether even a single soul would like to buy my work. But at least I want to give it a try ^^

Does anyone of you know a good place next to dA ?

I would highly appreciate any help because when it comes to those things I feel lost like whohooo

Today I'll feature ~Creature-Monster

Greetings,
Fluegel

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Mood: Nervous

move on

Journal Entry: Sat Feb 6, 2010, 3:52 PM

Hey

I want to thank ~Juhulefu and ~geronimo89 for their support. It means a lot to me to at least feel "noticed". Stupid thing, but well.

taintedI'm tainted from handcuffs and by my scars, by sex and self destruction. My tongue is foul and spit, not worthy of kissing your beautiful neck, not of speaking a word to you.
Your blood is fresh and warm, mine only circulates the hate.
I'm stained from hundreds of meaningless kisses, spoiled by the idiocy of dozens. My cheating hand, rather burned, than rewarded with you touch.
Both your smile and your tears are sun and stars, shining and glimmering from your innocence.
My soul is bruised, no more than ashes, reborn and burned down in a thousand dawns.
Yours is pure and bright, nearly blinding others with its light.
My mind i

Today I've been shooting with a friend of mine. I love the results so much. It was really difficult but yeah. We got it - i think.
I've already uploaded one image of the session, but I'm not sure yet, which I will upload. So if you're interested in the whole series: [link]

Tomorrow I will be off to Germany for a week. I'm so happy because I will be able to hug my friend a lot

And I will try to focus on real life more then on the Internet. So see you soon

Fluegel

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Mood: Nervous

be back + feature

Journal Entry: Sun Jan 3, 2010, 5:28 AM

As you might have noticed I've been submitting some photography from my holiday.
I hope you like it.

I did not have time to thank/look back to everyone commenting and faving my work. This is why I will do a feature
_{It takes a lot of time to inform everyone of being featured. So I'm not going to do it this time. Simply enjoy the work you see and be happy if you see your own}
Please respect that I can not feature all people

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Show the way - question-"Just be your own, and let your heart show you the way"

- But what if it´s broken? And feel nothing?

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Clubs & Groups

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Mood: Relief
Listening to: building java guis using the swing apis
Drinking: tea

feature: purple

by ~Fluegel, Aug 24, 2009, 1:57:30 AM
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Hello

Sorry for the delay. I've been busy and there have not been many submissions to this feature ...

I still hope, that you like it!!

Here you can take a look at the other features:
black: [link] - white: [link] - blue: [link] - green: [link] - red: [link]

Purple embodies the balance of red's stimulation and blue's calm. This dichotomy can cause unrest or uneasiness unless the undertone is clearly defined, at which point the purple takes on the characteristics of its undertone. With a sense of mystic and royal qualities, purple is a color often well liked by very creative or eccentric types and is the favorite color of adolescent girls.
[link]

Photography

Scenery

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Flowers

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Digital Art & Photomanipolution
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Traditional Art

Some Purple

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feature: red

by ~Fluegel, Aug 9, 2009, 2:05:26 AM
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This is another feature from my colour-series.
Take a look at the others here: BLACK - WHITE - BLUE - GREEN

Red has more personal associations than any other color. Recognized as a stimulant, red is inherently exciting and the amount of red is directly related to the level of energy perceived. Red draws attention and a keen use of red as an accent can immediately focus attention on a particular element.
[link]

Photography
People
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Nature

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Other
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Digital Art
Drawing

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Photomanipolution

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Traditional Art
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Other

Stock

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Some red

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This feature got soooo huge O.O

Next one is going to be PURPLE

Note me or wait for the forum-thread

Greetings,
Fluegel

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feature: green

by ~Fluegel, Aug 3, 2009, 1:47:10 AM
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This is my fourth feature in the colour-series. I hope you'll enjoy.

_{Green occupies more space in the spectrum visible to the human eye than most colors, and is second only to blue as a favorite color. Green is the pervasive color in the natural world, making it an ideal backdrop in interior design because we are so used to seeing it everywhere.

The natural greens, from forest to lime, are seen as tranquil and refreshing, with a natural balance of cool and warm (blue and yellow) undertones. Green is considered the color of peace and ecology.

However, there is an "institutional" side to green, associated with illness and government-issued green cards, that conjures up negative emotions, as do the "slimy" or "bilious" greens.
[link]}

Photography
- People
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- Nature

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- Other

Digital

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Traditional

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Stocks
_{(some are from my own stock account)}
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Outstanding suggestions for art containing green ...

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Next feature is going to be red !
I'll open the forum-topic right after publishing this feature in order to link it into the comments!

Greetings,
Flügel

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feature: blue

by ~Fluegel, Jul 26, 2009, 2:10:20 AM
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Hi everyone

"Blue is the overwhelming "favorite color." Blue is seen as trustworthy, dependable, and committed.

The color of ocean and sky, blue is perceived as a constant in our lives. As the collective color of the spirit, it invokes rest and can cause the body to produce chemicals that are calming. However, not all blues are serene and sedate.

Electric or brilliant blues become dynamic and dramatic -- an engaging color that expresses exhilaration. Some shades or the overuse of blue may come across as cold or uncaring.

Indigo, a deeper blue, symbolizes a mystical borderland of wisdom, self-mastery, and spiritual realization. While blue is the color of communication with others, indigo turns the blue inward to increase personal thought, profound insights, and instant understandings.

Blue is the least "gender specific" color, having equal appeal to both men and women."
[link]

This is the third feature of my colour series. BLUE. It was really difficult to decide which drawings/paintings/photography to take into the feature and which not as SO many people replied and noted me.
Within photography I tried to keep variation high as - of course - I got a lot of skies and water-photography. I hope, that you like this one

white feature - black feature

Photography
People & Portraits

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Scenery
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Nature

Other

Digital Drawings/Paintings

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Drawings/Paintings

Not that blue (beautiful anyway

)

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I really hope that you like this feature and that it did not get too large. Please +

support it ^^ (if you want).

Next one is going to be: green. You can note me about suggestions or wait for the forum-topic to be out ... ^^

Greetings,
Flügel

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feature: white

by ~Fluegel, Jul 19, 2009, 9:53:11 AM
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Hello people

You might remember my last feature not very long ago, concerning "black"/dark images. [link]
This is a feature concerning images from photography to traditional media with "white" as main focus.
It was difficult to find fitting images, but I think I did well and hope that you like my feature.

Photography